I’m sure the title of this post isn’t original. It’s a bit obvious, isn’t it? But I am moved to write about something I have noticed as a fresh blogger (Frogger?). I bet everyone goes through this process when they start, but since I have a blog, why not blog about blogging. Ooh, a piece o’candy!
After only a day or so of setting this up I’ve realised just how narcissistic and potentially distracting this blogging lark might be.
So far I have spent time choosing a look and feel (and then deciding I don’t like it – watch out, it might change); adding blogroll links – always worried I’m going to offend someone by leaving them out; writing a post; editing a post; editing a post; editing a post; telling people I had a blog, then playing with widgets…and then this…and then that….. And then there was the sitting back and waiting to see what happens.
And that’s the bit starting to worry me. I have become obsessed with seeing who’s visited the blog. I start to obsess about whether anyone’s commented on my post. I greedily watch the statistics go up and down. I then wonder why the people who visited haven’t left a comment (‘did they not like it?’). By the way, this isn’t a plea to leave a comment. Honest. (but, if you do feel moved to…).
In short, blogging has activated my narcissistic paranoia.
And then I think that blogging is essentially narcissistic, isn’t it? After all, fundamental to blogging is the (vain?) hope that someone wants to read one’s musings. Otherwise, why bother with putting the stuff up in the first place? Stop fretting, Carl, welcome to a Web2.0 ‘publish yourself’ lifestyle.
So, blogging friends, did you (do you) suffer from the same sort of obsession? Is it something that goes away and you just get on with writing what you want anyway regardless of whether anyone reads what you writ?
Or are we all – at heart – friendless, narcissistic paranoiacs indulging in a silly pastime?